this makes no sense at all kind of a vent ---------------- "dont be aesthetic if it doesnt suit you" i used to think i wasnt made for this whole aes comm thing, but later i found out something. i actually like being aesthetic. i like experimenting with different styles and learning more. the thing is, its hard. hours of work just for something im not even proud of. being aesthetic is nice, but it takes something out me. i feel empty inside. i still do because im not completly out of my aesthetic phase yet. in the old times, i was so happy being aesthetic. thats because i didnt care about how bad or low quality my projects were. i didnt care about what people thought. now those are the number one things i care about. i dont feel like myself, but at the same time i do. so many pros, yet so many cons.
