I’m not holding back anymore. I’m just gonna say it how it is. Why do I even make an effort to be online anymore? You claim to be my friends, but few of you are real friend. The argument on bl with y’all last night made me realize. No matter what I say or how much reasoning I have, it doesn’t matter. You’ll all just team up against me. 2 of you were defending me and one was also the one in the same position as me. I forgive you all but I can’t lie, I’m angry. What did I do? “I was crying when you said that” only made ma angrier because I spent over 20 MINUTES crying about it before because I’m always ignored. I always apologize for overreacting but I’m not anymore. It happens so much that it’s impossible for me to overreact. I try to greet you all kindly and make jokes to lighten the mood but I’m just ignored. I had to curse out everybody involved for like 30 minutes to get your attention. It only got your attention when I said how much I hated you all like 50 times. Like even if talking doesn’t get your attention, me typing in all caps aggressive things didn’t get your attention. But they you all used it against me when I clearly stated I didn’t mean it and was just saying it in hopes to get your attention. Honestly, I ignore people too sometimes when I get carried away over text, but it takes only a minute or two to realized I missed someone’s message and I apologized. Last night I had to apologize to get an apology which wasn’t even a proper apology. Why do I always have to apologize for things I shouldn’t have to. 20-30 minutes if not more of trying to get your attention and I’m still ignored. Along with my friend. You guys ignore him probably more than me. And he’s the sweetest kindest person ever. What the heck do I have to do in order to be treated with COMMON HUMAN DECENCY! You know who you are and you’ll probably use this against me too. Just talk over scratch, text, or dms. It’s really not that difficult. ANOTHER THING! Ok you didn’t see my group chat message. Makes sense. YOU IGNORE MY DMS TOO! WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO! AND YOU NEVER APOLOGIZE UNTIL 1. My sister comes online to defend me 2. I get sad to the point of… if yk yk I just quit trying to be nice. Barely any of you aren’t fake. I don’t even want apologizes anymore because I know they’re all fake.
So thank you to Lixie and Aera for defending me. Thanks to Yuyu and J.won to trying to calm down the situation. Thank you to Natty, Eunji, and Minnie for always being kind to me and putting up with my weird self. Thank you to Winnie for comforting me after. Thank you Isa for stealing my phone to defend me. And stan fromis_9
