Thank you/vent

Instructions

Hello everyone. From the title, I’m guessing you think I’m leaving. You would be wrong. Take that >:) But instead this project is gonna be a small thank you and a small vent. Please note that some of the topics I might say in the vent are a little sensitive to TW! There is no d3ath btw- Alright let’s get started to the brave souls still remaining. I’m gonna start off with the thank you. Thank you all so much for just being here for me. This time right now for me is very difficult, for I am at the stage of hormones activating. It’s painful for me. And something happened recently that almost made me have to quit scratch. That time made me think about all the friends I’ve had and have yet to make. I am so grateful for each one of you. Thank you for all the support you guys have given me. I would not be the person I am today without all of y’all. Now, onto the vent. Again, there is a topic that is a little sensitive. So be warned. Vent 1#: So I was just chilling in the car with my mom. We were listening to music when she asked me to search up the place we were going to. I did so and it lead us straight into traffic. My mom got mad and told me I needed my dad to look at my phone. That scared me. What if they found my music? Photos? My account? My vents? This made me panic very much. While in the car, I started to scratch my arms until they were red and I couldn’t feel them. I had down this in the past but never this hard. I promised I would never do IT again. But I broke that promise. But luckily on my own time, I found the problem and fixed it. From that moment on, I haven’t done IT. So… Vent 2#: I had art camp this week but I was going full day instead of half. Meaning, I would to traditional art. The teacher, (Fake name: Bobby) was talking about what we where doing. He said we were gonna draw ourself. OURSELFS. That word hit me hard. What do I look like? This made me remember I have BDD. I don’t like my body basically. I shook awake to see a part infront of me. Then Bobby came next to me and said “You know, your name tag doesn’t have to be realistic” (Explanation: He did a really good drawing of himself for his nametag) “You can make it how you see yourself.” I thought /How do I see myself?/ then I thought to the character you see above. I was so happy he said that. But, I’ve been drawing myself for the actual project and I h8 the drawings but I don’t show it. We’re gonna tear them up and make a Collage. I will not show that for it would be too revealing of my face but I might make clips :) Phew! Thank you so much for listening and have a great day/night!!!