Farewell! I've been inactive for the past 2 years because I've felt this urge, need to share everyday. I started draining myself and felt unmotivated. In these past 2 years I have made tons of life-long friends~ But with scratch on my tail, I just can't. I hope you understand! ~stars
04/01/2023 edit: I may have quit, yes, but i still check scratch every month or so (just for a minute lol) And the reason behind this is because I have a life I need to focus on. Happy new year btw! This project has aged well and yeah.. Can't believe it's 2023! -> I'd like to reveal a more detailed reason I have quit. I was a chaser for fame. I wanted that satisfaction from getting a milestone of views! (gravity- my most viewed project which is now legacy and unshared) Because of its success, I have decided to reshare it. But ever since then I have developed a habit of procrastination. (Definition- Continuously postponing or delaying an activity.) Coding was my passion. Perhaps, without scratch, I wouldn't be on this track of life, which would be terrible! Back to the story- I was glued to scratch. I had no motivation to actually code, and I never reached my full potential. All I wanted to do was promote my games and get a few likes or follows. But I was wrong. I'm not ungrateful, but i really stupidly thought I could be famous. I had fun- making friends! But the endless cycle of comparing myself to scratchers who I quote "was not worthy of their status" was deeply affecting me in a negative way. (I did this because I was jealous that they were more successful and I foolishly thought my projects are better) And I would always have these dreams of making a life changing game, but would never finish the project. I have MANY unshared projects that I never went through with, and for some period, I took a hiatus because of the stress I was dealing with. However, the hiatus showed me that life got better, without having scratch on my tail, constantly following who I was as a person. So my habit of randomly disappearing developed from that. I also, made some friends who are partially to blame (obvi dont blame them, just being brutally honest) and I had so much fun with them that I didn't need to think about scratch- I could just be me, in real life, not hiding behind a profile. But there was some people that i deeply regret wasting my time on which prevented me from growing further. These people had put me under eons of stress. I couldn't cope with it. I decided to give up scratch as a way of coping. Also, looking back, I didn't even work for my followers. About 300 people that follow me (which is nearly everyone) was a result from F4F (follow for follow) And although it looks good from the outside, behind closed doors, i only realistically had 60 followers or so. In the span of 2 years. I would've been happy with 60 genuine loving followers than 300 people who used me as a pawn in their game while I did the same. (No hate to people who do follow for follow- it is just a way for me to say it) Looking back, I was truely blinded by fame. I miss those times where it was just me enjoying myself coding and sharing my passion with others who also enjoyed it. Now it is just an endless cycle that is the hunt for followers. This past year has been rough. Thanks for the memories. You were really the opening to a new life of interacting with strangers yet again. Any mistakes I made on here, I have improved. Happy 2023. Have a good one. edit 05/01/2023: i lost about 200 followers from the last time i checked, truely a result of being inactive and those follows being from f4f...
