i just want to talk about my aes community life. have you noticed more and more people are starting to make projects like "banners for idols" and stuff like that? and they are usually very new people. and that gives them more fame :/ im sorry i had to rant about this but im rlly p!$$ed off and i just can't stand it anymore. this is how it works: person makes banner for idol project. idol sees and loves the project. people see idol loving the project. people love the project. people comment on their pf or project. idol notices their banner style. idol becomes closer to maker. maker gets fame. maker becomes an idol. im sorry, but why? i decided i could just cheat and do this too :) but i don't want to. making a proj like this for fun? stop lying. to be an idol it takes 1239820938 years /srs there are certain people that im kinda directing to but its fine, no hate <3 anyways, a lot of old comm members know how t0x!c the aesthetic community is now. many of the old comm members have been through a drama crisis. they remember how it has been. like remember the crystal-azzie crisis? (sorry for bringing it up) its like we've been through this. altogether. the new members don't even know what scratch among us is. that just makes me feel like i want to cry. the old aesthetic community was way better. i was just living my life and meeting friends. looking through my old chatroom gives me so much nostalgia. even through that drama i knew that we we're all together. i felt scared but i also knew that we were all scared. i felt like we were all holding hands.i want to go back. okay look now. my closest friends mostly left already and im literally dy!ng here. my first friends are ia and while one of mine was active she forgot about how close we were and started making the popular people her closest </3 i feel like I want to cry when i remember @ricecwke (now at @beanrie) and @beijingcorn (look through the comments) i want reverse time, i want to .. make the community better.. </3 oop im sorry is that too much ranting? sorry i just need someone to talk to, someone who will understand me, relate to me, even if i go very deep. my pin is @.cybersprouts if u would like to know ;__; guys if the comm doesn't improve before 8/13 im gonna leave aesthetic community :/ anyways, sorry for ranting..
