helloo it's actually kayla here lol i was finally able to sneak onto scratchhh alright so first of all i apologize for my sister posting the "pLeAsE hELp" project i feel like she shouldn't have done that because i mean who really cares about my "sickness" lol- bleh *slaps her* (also she may be getting a scratch acc soon :o) buut tysm though for all the prayers and wishes and good vibes and etc, they were sososo awesome to read aah >< AND #KAYWILLRECOVER?! I JUST- ngl i actually started crying over the whole hashtag thing and pfp thing and the whole studio period ;w; you guys are way too awesome for this world- i cannot express how much it meant to see everything so uh.. i basically have something called leukemia. it's a type of cancer that has something to do with your bl00d cells- i don't really feel like talking about it but you can look it up for more info. i'm not totally surprised because im actually not the first one in my family to get cancer.. but if im being honest im worried as heck- me and my sister used to actually watch alexa + katie and i never thought about what it would be like to actually have cancer. i honestly feel like i will never live up to the hashtag or whatever because uh ig i feel really hopeless that i'll ever be a cancer surviver. (sorry to sound so depressing TT) and chemo will be starting soon, and i'll lose all of my hair, and of COURSE it has to be my first year at my new school SO UHM YEAH but.. (sorry for stealing what you said winter, but it's honestly 100% true.) im honestly thinking about leaving scratch. after getting sick and being off for a week, i realized my world doesn't revolve around scratch... but my friends :> i couldn't live without them, but scratch..? now, i think i could. the school year was a total different story. i LIVED on scratch, couldn't survive a minute without it. but after this summer, i got myself less and less attached. and don't let this be a sad thing, don't even bother caring about me leaving lol. the idea is actually.. erm appealing, i guess you could say. not living on scratch for 2-3 hours a day. without my friends, scratch would be useless. of course my followers are all awesome people but, well, you know. they're not my friends. i honest to god actually love my friends on here, i've never met anybody who understands me as much as them. they actually care about me, and no words can describe/compare to how much i care about them. *not getting emotional irl* im still not sure if im leaving yet though. BUT, if i do, i need (if you have one) the p1n from these people: Meg (already got it lol) Winter (got hers too) Liv (yep got hers) Donut (i found it i think >:o) Uni Averi Lilah Moon (already have) Summer Daisy those are the people i really care about, the people who have gotten me through a lot. so thank you. it's still a debate though on whether i should leave or not, so i probably may stay :') for now im staying, only if you see a project that says "leaving" then i will leave :) oh yeah aLsO i'm super ready to post my art dumpp✨️ luckily when you have nothing else to do you can draw so many things :,0 i am planning to post it in a few days ^^ but really you guys are all so amazing, like wth why would you care >:,0 the studio, pfp, banners, hashtag- its too much :'] tysm yall <33