i'm sure you have better things to do with your time so if anyone manages to see this if you don't want to see me complain about my life just leave now i freaking hate myself i feel like no one wants to talk to me no one pays any attention i wish i could dissappear its not like anyone would notice anyway im pretty sure everyone hates me i feel very lonely lately i keep trying to find something to do but im so bored no one wants to talk to me people just ignore me i hate my art i hate it when people say its good because its not and overall im just tired of always acting like im perfectly fine because im NOT and its not just irl i act like im fine online and over text and im tired of it so this is the one time im dropping my act just to vent to absolutely no one and my birthday is soon and i hate it i dont want to be older life is stressful enough right now and i want to scream but i cant because my family is around and i wish they would just leave me alone i only want to talk to my friends but they dont talk to me so its better to just be completely alone but thats way harder than it should be and i wish my art was better im always comparing myself to other people theyre so much better than me i hate myself i hate the way i look i hate the way my voice sounds i hate the way i act but for some reason i cant change that and i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself so much who needs to scream into a pillow when you could scream at yourself
i want to cry and i want to yell and scream but i cant its- i just cant i cant i dont know why but i cant
