scroll down for vent. if you don't like triggering stuff then I suggest you don't. you have been warned. [ chiri out ] ( to protect people's privacy, names/usernames are not mentioned ) so lately, people have been walking out of my life and one person I cared about most also did and ever since then I'm not the same, like now I'm having sui(beep)dal thoughts every ten seconds, it's only the first week of school and already I've had phone calls home. plus now there's this voice whispering in my brain that nothing lasts forever so even the people you have left are going to leave on you, even yourself. the most recent person who left is still currently in my life and I still care very much for them, but I dont.want.to.care.for.them because again nothing lasts forever does it? so my feelings are like wind, blowing in one direction and changing within a snap. things are so hard for me right now and I can't concentrate on anything and my.heart.hurts.so.much and I just want to quit...! edit: oh great, now one of my friends are leaving, again. do things get any better :)
