So like- I might take a break soon. Here's why: Nobody responds to my comments half the time, and it's not super great to be checking my inbox 3000 times a day waiting for rp replies or just replies in general, when I know there isn't going to be any. Also, I'm afraid of getting banned over legit nothing. Like, do you see how many scratchers are getting banned for no reason? Like my good friend @Sl4erhawks got banned a week ago for some things said in different rps. Personally I didn't see what they said, but I know they weren't bad, knowing Hawks. Also, nobody sees my projects or comments on them I feel like. OKAY onto the next thing I'm going to talk about. So I go to Public school, right? Yeahhh- I have a crush on this guy, actually I have a crush on two guys, one of them I'm friends with (Let's call him H), one of them I am not, but I have a lot of classes with him and he's really cute and funny (Let's call him cam). But he says he has a GF, but nobody knows who it is so I think she's non-existent (Something he said to the teacher after she said "AAAAND cam never has a GF again-" *ask me the story in comments*) or doesn't go to our school, cuz the only girl I ever see him around is J because he has to sit next to her. But anyways- yeah someone help ;-; ALSO the other guy I have a crush on is a complecated situation. Sooo here we go- I don't /ACTUALLY/ have a crush on him. I think I might, and all of my friends are trying to force me to be with him, so I really don't anymore. I used to have a crush on him, then my friends started shipping us (more then they already were) and I'm just done. Like my friends don't even know I have a crush on cam. Not even my bff. And with H they're always like "OooOoOOO you were texting H!?" Or "OmG you were on a call with H for longer then 5 minutes!?!?" And it's really annoying. They always flip out of I just talk to him. On Fridays we're forced to do walk-and-talk so I normally talk to him then, and they get weird about that too. Recently H told me he'd give me guitar lessons basically- didn't tell them about that, coz they'd freak out. Also, I'm in a group with cam for social studies so yeah ;-; and I've only ever talked to him to help him understand stuff. So yeah. Do you guys ever feel like someone is staring right at you?? Yeah. I have someone that just STARES at me in SS class. I think he either spaces out a lot (which wouldn't make sense because he always answers questions and stuff) or he likes me. Idk. I don't think anyone likes me this year, but I did catch cam looking at me the other day. This year so many people have just stared at me it's weird. Like bro- I'm not even that pretty. My friend M thinks she's so ugly and I feel bad for her coz she's actually gorgeous, really popular, and like 3 guys like her she just won't tell me who. My other friend A is the same way, tall, lean, super pretty, and thinks she's ugly. It's really sad. And idk where they're getting that Abt themselves from, bcuz ik M's parents and they're really nice. Idk A's parents so idk what they're feeding into her. Anywayssss- also could you guys tell me how to figure out if a guy likes you-?? Coz I really don't know obviously. I just wanna know if anyone thinks I'm good-looking or cute tbh ;-; anyways BAI gotta get ready for school and listen to MuSiC B] UPDATE 9/21: I found out who cam's GF is- itssss someone very controlling and annoying :/ that's not just my opinion I promise lol ANOTHER UPDATE 9/22: Uhm so my friend/ex invited me to follow him on snap but I dont have snap and like I'm too nice to say anything (okay thats not true, I just don't wanna get called lame by anyone else, and def not him) UPDATE 9/23: Got snap UPDATE 9/27: Drama ;-; My friend got annoyed with my other friend calling herself dum so he told her to ask for help and stop complaining and she feels like he snapped at her and my best friend too her side ofc and I don't like taking sides so I'm not, and also on top of that I'm having problems with my best friend. Me and my OTHER best friend had a long conversation about all this and she was very helpful ^^ Edit 9/27: Got grounded bcuz of conversation I had with bestie no. 1 and some other reasons. Me and her are not on speaking terms until further notice. EDIT 9/29: GUYS CAM BROKE UP WITH HIS GF ;_; Should I be excited or feel bad- also my other crush, H, aaaahhhh omg I saw him today and all I could think was "Omg he's so cute-" like AAAAHHHH WTH??? I've never thought that b4...unless it's about one of them pinterest dudes lol
