Hi, so I'm probably gonna make a project later on this if I have the motivation (already done), but recently I've been hurting myself again. I don't know what's gonna happen to me within the next few months but I'm just letting everyone know because I think something's very wrong with my brain and how my aspect of life is affecting myself and others. The main part I'm trying to get at here is that my depression has worsened dramatically, and all I need is one person to care: one friend who can at least act like they care. But I can't even find my parents caring about my mental health anymore. My head hurts from the memories crashing in every 5 minutes. I thought I was getting better, but all that useless advice only made me worse. I'm sorry for ranting about my personal life and health, it's not like anyone's gonna read this anyways. A lot is just going on all to fast for me. I just needed to let this out so at least there'd be memory of me when I'm gone. I honestly don't think it'll be long from now. I don't even really know why I'm so sad all the time. There's not much to care about anymore. Everyone thinks they have a purpose in life- but really, we just want to believe that so you always have something to think about or do. The truth is, we're just as much animals as those out in the woods- And were basically just as vulnerable as a deaf bat. We all die at some point so why even explain, this is just one simple human talking from her outlook on life. I'll probably come back guys. No need to worry (I doubt you did in the first place). So yeah. Bye. I also have a free verse poem thing on the notes and credits so- yeah.
Song by: AURORA Art by: Me (POEM THING) "But this memory is written in pen, engraved unto my mind: Sometimes one story goes on forever, like a record tape- Haunting. Hurting. Many think an easy way to rid of it is to destroy it, but at what cost, to destroy the good memories too? Why even try to stop them: 'Just be happy, just forget about it, just calm down~' It's not that easy, to just be happy overall. What more can one expect of me, when all I have is oxygen? Whats wrong with me? Why am I this way? Why can't I be better? Everyone says life is short, and you should enjoy it while you can, But what is there to enjoy, when in the end, no one's there?"
