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I am Lost ___________________________________________________ My weak, stumbling footsteps tap against the coarse dirt. Rubble is everywhere, piled, strewn, what was once the shelter, once 50 civillians’ only hope, blown to peices. What was once their way to survive, became a reason why they didn’t. As my weary eyes scan over the destruction, searching in vain for signs of life one thought becomes clear in my swarming, rithing mind. I shouldn’t be alive. *********************2 days ago********************** I am dragged through the crowd of clamouring bodies, all emitting waves of fear, of sadness. My hand is clasped firmly by my brother, weaving through the civillians, searching in the chaos for Ma. Relief is pulsing inside my soul; for now, we are safe. For now, we are sheltered. For now, we are together. My scrawny, battered body collides with a familiar sweater, a familiar smell. Ma. She clutches us both tight, and for a moment I feel like we are going to be okay… Everything shatters. Time. Space. Reality. Everything. A roaring sound fills my ears, pounding, reverberating in my helpless mind. For a moment I feel like I’m defying gravity, my body numb, my soul peacful. Then my face smashes into rock and darkness engulfs me, pain tearing at every fiber, every atom of my being. I slip away into unconsciousness… Rocks press down on every side, my breath sharp in my chest, dust clogging my sinuses. I don’t know how long I have been out, all sense of time has been lost. A warm liquid trickles from my nose. I am trapped. Panic cages me. I can’t get out, I’m stuck, I’m being crushed, no one can see me, no one can hear me, no one is going to save me- My mind flips, rithes, warps into images, thoughts, all depicting me being crushed by these rocks, or being stuck here until I suffocate. Tears pour down my grimy face, and, gasping for air, I strain my eyes into the darkness. A metal rod, most likely from the supports of the shelter, catches my eye. If I can put enough pressure on it, I can use it as a lever…I wriggle towards it, heart thumping in my ears. One wrong move and I’ll be crushed in seconds. I use all my strength to ease it down and… Yes. Light spills down onto my stinging face, scrunching up my eyes against the glare. I haul myself out onto the dirt. *********************************** It’s the truth. I should not be alive. No one else is. So why am I? I’d rather have died than this, stood here, alone, facing the prospect of venturing on with no one to look after me, look out for me. No one who loves me. Tears spill down my already tear streaked face, but even they can’t convey the fear that has me in its merciless grasp. I fall to my knees, succumbing to the thoughts in my near silent world. I am lost.
