Wow. My life is getting really bad again rn. I really need help now. I just can't. My school has a counseling center, but I really don't wanna go. I don't have a choice. The reason why I'm scared to go is because 1 people will think I'm stupid and I don't need to be there, and I'm a waste of time. 2 because the last time I went there the counselor said it was probably hormones. Probably, but that really wasn't the case. I mean, she was super nice, but now that gives me bad anxiety. I really hope I don't have a mental breakdown in class. I will. I did when I was making the cotton candy skies meme: https://scratch.mit.edu/projects/738951541/ it was a mix of insecurity and the death of my guinea pig. It explains a lot in the description. Bruh, at the beginning of the year I was finally gaining popularity like I always dreamed of, ever so slowly but now it's dropping. Guess I learned my lesson. I feel like my friend hates me now because I was like, "look I got 180'' (from Electron Dash on math playground). One of my only friends in my main classes had to get a new schedule because the school wanted her to, and I feel so dang sad. I feel like I'm useless. Oof I just cracked my finger. Feels out of place.... Anyway back to my story! Btw this is gonna be long! Like. I feel like a useless speck in this world. Well one good thing is that I've never gotten into school fights...? My friends are all betraying and turning against me- I feel so unsteady and insecure. I'm just afraid to get help. Even that same friend that apparently hates me rn said I'm not going through anything as bad. And now I feel like I'm clinging onto my friends like a patch of mold. Literally. I had this one friend who we were in everything together and then she started to betray me- and then another friend (guess who it is) that betrayed me. Well, we were partners in literally about everything, but we sometimes switched it up, and yet they STILL betrayed me. This one dumb kid keeps kicking my desk in math. He's the reason I moved seats in 2nd period. Bruh the same kid had to move to our table apparently because he was 'struggling'. Even if he is, which I understand, he literally pays NO ATTENTION to any of the lessons. He doesn't even try to do the questions himself. No joke. He legit sits there and waits for us to finish the question so he copies off. I understand if you struggle in math bro, but god please stop kicking my freaking desk and pay attention in math! Omg I'm so mad at that kid~ I feel like I don't have that bad of depression and that I'm just a burden. I hope I'm right. I just wish ''we could turn back time, to the good old da-ays." I miss Elementary school. There was absolutely no homework. Until 5th grade. That's where the depression started. :') Cotton candy skies quote: "I'm running out of time.'' I really am. I'm getting pretty deep. I hope it won't be- y'know where this is going. Well, I'll let you guys decide. Comment ''please get help'' if you think I need help. If I don't get any comments, I won't. Sorry that this is extremely long! ^^' *A minute later: I'm so tired of waiting. I won't start therapy sessions, but I just really can't wait anymore. Still, tell me ''please get help'' if you think I should go to the stinking counselor~
