hi! it has been...quite a while since ive logged in on here. so so much has happened to me since i left scratch and ive also had the time to reflect on my behavior here + the stuff i saw other people doing specifically in the art community and also just...close this era of my life out for good for a quick rundown of where ive been: mostly chronically ill and going to doctors appointments LOL. ive also started college! which is crazy! im (hopefully) on track to becoming a genetic counselor ^^ ive made new friends and started new opportunities also. i started volunteering for my local historical society and working in my community more. i got diagnosed with adhd and since then my mental health has been doing so much better now that ive been (mostly) offline for... 2? years? as of writing this my birthday is quite soon and i guess im feeling nostalgic and sappy LOL as for my time here; i made amazing friends here and my art grew so much!! while i was here!!! and that was amazing + great but there was also such a toxic culture here around how art looked and how to draw. as someone who is multiply disabled + has struggled with hand-eye coordination since i was a kid (and now has MORE problems that effect my hands) that kind of environment was extremely detrimental to my mental health. there was constant self-deprecation from me and so many other young artists and it makes me sad to think about now because my art was really good!!! but i didnt feel any sense of pride in it because i was constantly comparing myself to others on the other hand, i also met a lot of people i became great friends with on here. we had such a nice time talking to eachother and we did art trades and it was so much fun!!! i also??? contributed to a lot of peoples gender/sexuality awakenings??? this is tangentially related but i still think its very funny how ive been that person for...over 4 people in the past 3-4 years. but again: tangentially related anyway im rambling now and this section has gotten! so! long! so i guess what im trying to say is that i love all of the friends i made here but i also dont miss scratch at all due to...most of the stuff i talked about. i love u all for reading this if u got this far <3 mwah mwah!!!
shoutout to north + everyone else i met here and talked too i miss you all so much and you were instrumental to my life whilst we were talking <3 i wish everyone here well and hope everything is working out for everyone!!! if you want to reconnect, look inside. i love you all so much mwah mwah <3 thank you for reading <333
