this no longer applies! i still feel this way a bit, but its better :) scroll down to see original TW: talking about death, negativity, etc i HATE social life. yeah thats right, being a NORMAL person. i have friends, but i dont ever meet up together, go on sleepovers, etc. my bff is going to spend the night at a farm, and she asked me if i wanted to go. i had to tell my my mom to respond (text) and say i didnt want to. idek anymore. i hate social life, and events. i always choose not to go to them. and yet i feel left out. ig its my fault, and my problem... but what if i dont know how to solve that problem? am i broken? ik God doesn't make mistakes, but i kinda feel like he did w\ me sometimes i asked myself, would i be better off dead? the answer...? it would be a HUGE sin to commit you-know-what, and idek how, so... and i dont wanna be a sinner on top of everything else. i just dont wanna go to the therapist again...it was AWFUL she was kinda stupid...ngl.......... idek how i feel! or what to do!
