So. This vent contains topics that may be uncomfortable for some users. Please click off if you are among these people. ----- My parents usually lecture/vent to me whenever I'm getting scolded. It's a normal thing. Out of their frustration about my laziness, procrastination, etc. But one day...I hit my breaking point. My mother was so mad at me one day..she insulted me. She called me a malicious, selfish person. Is..she right? Am I? Am I...malicious...? Am I selfish? After that day was the same day a.. scratcher I knew (won't say friend because they dislike me and my friends now) left Scratch. So I thought, hey..with them gone, I could clear my head..and start over. I was..wrong. Things got frustrating. I was cursed at by a banned scratcher. I was h@ted. All I had was a friend who was wrongly banned but I kept in touch with. Even then things were bad. The one who I thought left Scratch had been on the secondary website as well. And was trying to get my friend to turn on me. Luckily our friendship/relationship was strong..and they didn't listen. But I was still wondering. What would've happened if they all were gone? What would I be then? Alone. And afraid. And I'm seen as a villain by my own family now. A malicious, selfish person. Don't get me wrong, my mother said it out of anger and didn't mean it. But...she wasn't wrong, apparently. So, to those who really want to know. Maybe I was in the wrong. I did apologize. I tried. And I failed. But nobody knows that, right? All they see is what happened, but never the aftermath. ...maybe it's time I forget about it. They're gone, and so should my problems be, right? I shouldn't dwindle on something that happened close to a year ago. I'm a new person, and I can't say for sure that they are too. But I want nothing to do with them, because I already did enough damage, didn't I? ...don't comment on this vent, please. Even if it's positive advice. This is just a vent. And to those who I'm talking about..I won't even bother speak. I said my piece..and I'm done.
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