The reason I'm leaving scratch is simple yet dangerous I was not allowed to do scratch ... Yes it might sound shocking but it's true It's not really that I'm *not* allowed, just my parents don't approve internet surfing and stuff But my curiosity spilled out... I joined scratch without my parent's knowledge I thought I would just look around and it would end that way But things were getting complicated And I dived in much deeper than I would have thought I started to learn about scratch stuff And shared projects I started to draw and develop my own style ... Go on, criticize me Shudder at the thought of my crime I don't blame you I don't deserve this many followers or friends.. ... When I was young I didn't felt anything doing these stuff, lying to my parents I wasn't ashamed or anything I was dumb stupid But I was in my puberty that time and I was off my head, acting like crazy stuff Now I've grown up and I know this isn't right I shall leave scratch behind totally I will act as if my year weren't dedicated to scratch And would never look back ... As I did a wrong thing I have to make a great cost to regain my conscience I have to leave all my scratch friends It's like... cutting of my skin The support they gave me.. How they helped me go through difficult things and times... I would have given anything to remain contact with them ... But I do not regret my decision ... Sylvee, you gave me your email When I'm older.. Probably after a few years I might be able to contact you with my email So please don't be alarmed when your old scratch friends wants to know How you're doing ok How you're doing with your life ... I recommend you not to comment criticism I have enough stress irl And it's enough pain writing all this down... Please... ... ... ... I try to act cheery and enthusiastic irl But I haven't felt ever so broken I think I might cry I'm so pathetic Useless Fowl person who doesn't deserve all the love I get Don't try to comfort me unless you're my friend I get all stressed when a total stranger tries to understand my situation ... But at least it's over. Finally, it's over. I can open my computer without feeling shame I can look at the sky and admire how beautiful it is I can sing along the hymn without lowering my head and wanting to hide my face Finally I'm free From the vicious circle Goodbye, to you all I'm leaving for a better life A much more improved life And I hope Wherever you are You're doing great Just keep in mind that You're wonderful and has a sparkling jewel in your heart And with these words... ... I'm off... Off to the real world Why does this sounds like a poem you stupid Sparkling person (And why, WHY do I want to put a bit humor in my somber last words.. I'm so pathetic)
It's costing so much even to write this But I had to do this For me, and you And... If someone criticizes me... I really would flip my computer over
