is she loosing feelings for me? I think it's because of dascord, I had that months ago. I don't have access to it anymore. I don't know what my friends are doing anymore. I'm scared, I'm scared she'll think I hate her. I don't, by the way. I only acted that way bc of my stupid friends. but, will she hate me forever? I'm shaking, I don't feel anything but fear, I don't want to live if it means being hated by her, I need help but I'm too scared to ask for it bc my friends will call me "emo" and it feels as if my friends think I'm doing it for attention. I might quit scratch, maybe. I fear that she won't talk to me bc of my past messages. I think I'm gonna take a break from scratch for a while, maybe - maybe watch more Hunter x Hunter while I'm at it, maybe... go for a little swim... ..
