Um, so, I'm making a rant. This'll be rambling. I guarantee. I'm really tired of being looked at like I'm weird because of my upbringing. For example, I am homeschooled, so I constantly get comments about how I must stay in my pajamas all day or how I must be really smart or that I probably don't have a lot of friends. (all of those are somewhat true though) But still, it annoys me. Also, I don't have a phone. A girl at church told me the other day "Your mental health must be awesome." I laughed, because she has NO IDEA. My family fosters children, children from situations that are less than ideal. These kids carry trauma, and they pass that on to me, my siblings, and my parents as secondary trauma. Also, my sister had cancer, causing more trauma for all of us. So the lack of a phone doesn't mean that my mental health is good. I don't struggle with comparison as much, but trauma levels are pretty high. I've had to let go of too many friendships, almost everyone has left or drifted away. I'm a Christian with unpopular opinions. I'm a girl who's pretty smart. I'm of average height and looks. But most of all, I'm tired. Tired of stereotypes. Tired of having to be the adult. Tired of being "the sarcastic unfeeling one" Tired. And I have been for so long. I don't know how to stop.
