So ive been having a hard time. Im somebody’s alt. Please dont ask who’s alt i am. If you ask i will not answer you. So, im supposed to be someone who is happy. But that doesnt mean i dont have my problems. So when i was in ____ grade i liked someone, and at the end of the year, i found out that they liked me too. To make a long story short, the next year, i friend-zoned them because i didnt anymore and broke their heart. I feel very bad about it, and someone who i like to think of as my big bro helped advised me about it, it kind of helped, but not really. I never really told any of my friends. I wore an emotional mask most of the time at school. The mask i wore was a mask that was usually very happy, polite and excited. Now that doesnt mean i can’t be a happy and polite person. I can. Its just that i was happy so much i got the impression that I can’t stop being happy. Now there was this one time where one of my teacher had a heart attack and passed away, and for a few days, i wore a different mask, but soon got over it. The only person who really knew about the emotional masks is my “big bro”. Now, i dont have any older brothers, so i like to think of him as one. He knows right away, when something is wrong, and maybe its because ive known him since i was little. But one day, he said, Zhen Ni, its ok for you to be sad, you know? And that just made my day. Idk if this is really a vent. It just makes me feel better mentally thinking that since people might know about this that my problems are semi-off of my plate and it feels like a huge weight is gone from me. I’ve spent so much time comforting people on here. I think its time i receive some comfort myself now. :’D
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