[I'm trying something out lol] Hey. It's been a few months since the fight with Jay and Weston's leaving, so I thought I'd write this entry- though it's been a while since I even opened this dumb thing. So, dear diary, today I thought about stuff. I know, so totally cool and un-corny, but I'm writing this after a "dear diary"; what do you expect of me? Anyways. Yeah, Weston's gone now. I miss him. I remember he'd told me about not feeling the same all the time, and I didn't really know what he meant until he left. Of course- I'm sure it's not the same as what Wes's going through, but I still feel so different. It's like nothing will be he same. Even Santino's gone and got a girl- which I'm happy for, but it's been lonelier than ever. Not to mention the fight that went down with me and Jaelynn. I still haven't told anybody about that whole affair. I'm still angry about it. Plus, I have no idea how to interact with any of the people I know. Max is always so much more energetic than I am, which usually can be a good thing, but lately I just haven't been feeling up for much other than feeling sorry for myself heh. I think it disappoints him when I say no. Austin is the only one I feel like I can really talk to, but I never do. I don't know why. I wish I could, though. And then there's Blake and Wynn. Blake is sweet, but we're practically strangers. She'd moved away long before I was even thought of. I think there may be something wrong with Wynn. It sounds mean, I know, but he acts a bit... strange at times. I'd like to ask him about that, but for some strange reason I can't actually imagine that going down well. I would like to get along with them, though. I've never even met his kids. Which really sucks. -B.C.D.
