I can't seem to adjust to the fact that 2022 is coming to an end. And, to be honest, it pains me. Kind of. When I was younger, things felt so simple. So easy. I could go about my day without worrying about the judgment of others, about the past, or even the future. And as I grew older, I realized that I had to get a hold of things. My life wasn't going to spin itself out for me. I decided that, like a novel, I had to choose each word carefully in order to make an impact. I recently wrote a memoir. I wrote about a changing point - an epiphany. Although the effect was gradual, I was able to shove it onto a couple pages. "When I was nine years old, I was lost, but I didn't know it yet." This was the first line. As I continued writing, from the first draft to the final changes, I found myself rereading that line multiple times. I realized how true it was. How lost I still am. I realized that no matter how many times I read through a story - my story - and no matter how many edits I made, there would still be a couple errors. I haven't accepted that yet. But I'm on my way. 2022 has been difficult, and yet so important. I know that many of us can say the same. In January, I was a completely different person. I admit - I was immature - and I still am. But I've gained a bit more understanding of myself and the world. Although it's only been a year in the physical world, I've grown at least 2, mentally. I'm a stronger writer and a stronger person. Scratch has helped more than anything. And now, to think I have nearly 100 followers! To think that so many people like my writing. People here accept my identity and personality, and it's made me so much stronger. I've used that word twice - no, three times now. Stronger. I may still feel like collapsing over little things, but I am ten times stronger than I was in January. I may feel helpless at times - but I am stronger. I have a few goals that I wish to carry out next year: - To write a novel. A real novel, one that I've thought out. - To publish a piece of writing - To drink more water lol - To be taken seriously (irl) or to appear that way. - To be stronger 2022 is ending. A new year is starting. I'm taking this chance to start over as a person, to acknowledge mistakes made in the past, and to look for a bright future. Good luck. /pos
