☂ soliloquy ↻ stellarkit application

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she makes and her favorite saying she lives by is "stick to your guns.". she takes this seriously and wards off any self-doubting thoughts. why would she feel regret? she has no reason to. she chose what she thought was right, and believes it helped her. she believes that you have a weak will, however, if you double back on your decisions. how can you get anywhere in life if you're always questioning your every move instead of taking the leap of faith to a greater future? she doesn't understand how cats could give up opportunities just because they're a little scared of sticking their paw in the swirling depths of the unknown. i mean, live a little, huh? stellarkit was born with a silver-lined tongue, with a fluent ability to persuade. everything about her seems convincing, to her beaming, passionate eyes, to her gentle smile, to her still, calm paws and the words that come out of her mouth, pristine, educated and correct. she has a way with words and tries her best to avert harmful opinions -- despite having her own -- or to twist you into believing in what she does. (i'd like to note, she is not bigoted. she just tries to convince you that you're annoyed by something or she tries to get you to turn against someone because of her vendetta with them. she doesnt hate them for how they were born, she probably hates them because they probably annoyed her or something or disrespected her and stuff.) she tries to warp your sense of reality to meddle with your brain, and alter your opinions. she doesn't always use her persuasive gift to spread her control among others. however, the silver spoon in her mouth only becomes malicious when we look a little deeper than her guise, of a shy yet bold little lady. she isn't a truthful cat and she's a cat to put on a facade at every twist and turn. she wants you to believe that she's the underdog, and not the antagonist. most of the time, she's lying. she lies whenever she finds it convenient to and she often passes the blame to others in situations to prevent herself from getting in trouble, and no matter how much you protest, she'll gaslight you over and over until you give up, and go with it. she will go to the extremes to make sure that she succeeds in each lie, even if it means she burns her bridges with you. (not to worry, she doesn't gaslight or manipulate her family and friends.) even if you tried to take her down, you wouldn't win. how could you, when you're going up against the respectful, kind and innocent stellarkit? you won't win against a little, harmless kit, would you? no. but you've already fallen into her trap. the tables have turned and the odds are all against you now. but only you see the truth for who she is, but no one will believe you. they'll call you crazy... stellarkit hasn't always been known for consistency, and she has a knack to experiment and tinker with everything. she likes exploring new subjects and trying out new things, even if she's uncertain of how the circumstances would come out. she also experiments with each of her facades, and often changes different things about her outside personality. she loves editing and revising many things and often tries different methods of hunting, playing, etc. however, not all experiments go well. some of her personality experiments often bust, which makes her come off as weird or angry to others, like if her inner personality was leaking through the cracks of her facade, which often ruins blossoming relationships. however, stellarkit isn't a cat to go out of her ways to make friends. she doesn't like talking with others very much and prefers to go do things what she wants to do, whether that be examining prey or bugs or looking at plants or swimming, or anything else. she in fact, will go out of her way to not get into situations, as she believes that her sweet, summer child guise is tiring and she much preffers to be herself, in her own little bubble, free of the stress that comes with consistently lying to everyone's faces, having to be worried if she'll be believed or not -- and if she isn't, then she'll have to lie or gaslight her way out. --. stellarkit has never been a cat who cooperates outside of the bare necessities and doesn't like going along with other's plans if she doesn't like them. so she does what any stubborn kit would, assert dominance. she's willing to fight her way to the top and she won't allow others to have their way. it's her way or none, and in order to make sure that everything goes in order, fitting her expectations, she has to take the reigns. she becomes aggressive and defensive whenever it comes to her ranking and she wants to assure that she's number one. she's willing to shed blood over her thirst for power and won't allow anyone to take her down. she'll go down fighting if needed and she won't ever give up. she has strong opinions and when you try and argue with her, she takes it personally. she isn't a cat to really judge you based on who (continued in comments)