* 1 / 30 / 23 * Dear Nini, Thursday was horrible. I really... I really don't like arguing with my friends, much less you. I think that I should have reacted better than I did. I have an excuse, and I hate it: there's no reason to be cruel!! Who does that?! I know I am impatient, unfair, and needy. I really don't know how or why you stuck around. You're such a sweet person, you don't need me messing up your life.... And don't lie, you know I am. I made you feel terrible, and I will never forgive myself. I mid as well dye, truly. I'm sorry. So sorry. A sweet person like you doesn't deserve that treatment. And so I won't be here anymore. In what way do I mean? I don't know. I could just go offline, but now I have to deal with the guilt of being mean to you. You were always patient, smart, and you were always there. I was not. even my own sister agrees with me. I haven't talked to her about my plan yet. I hope I see you.... In your version of heaven.
