Recently I have had lots of major anxiety. Mainly ruminating thoughts 24/7. I didn't know how to get rid (and still don't) but I tried some of these to see if they would work <3 ever since I joined the basketball team with certain people ( late 2022 I think.) I started questioning my abilities and who I was as a person. Was I ugly? Was I cool enough? Why don't they like me? Are they talking about me? Is it my acne? . . . . . . . . . These past months have been the hardest for me. After every game I still replay the moments, what I could have done, was I disappointing. The truth is, cultural and racial differences does exist. I shouldn't have to prove that Im good enough, and they shouldn't lower their standards because of my race. In the end, all they see me is, is a "rice eater" ,, that's Gen Z for you. I'm here to tell you that ITS NOT FUNNY. It hurts. It really hurts that I am overlooked for this. I left scratch when the doctor diagnosed me with seasonal depression. Some days I couldn't get out of bed, I was so sad. Everybody is racist towards each other, Asians are always told to go back to China or to open their eyes, white people are always being called snowbunny's, and black people are always being told to go back to Africa. Enough is enough. Wake up from your insecure dreams and do something. This age is horrible. So, if your someone who has racially or culturally verbally discriminated/abused someone else, this is your sign to stop. You have done enough for today
