hi so uhm i decied to take a long break bc of school and personal drama and depression and also for lying abt my personality so I'm going to try and explain all of this.. school has been going crazy with all this drama like ifrst off one of a bsf got kicked out our group for no reason nd everyone wants to jump her. second my grades are changing i use o have A's and B's in history and math but now i have C that might even go down to a E so I'm trying my best. third one of my bsf are changing like first off all i did was talk in class and one of the three of us had to move so she did in mini miny mo nd she skipped me just so then i could move to the front and she also stopped talking to me at lunch bc she was using our friends phone and airpods and when the principal took them away she just ran out of the cafeteria and left me and my friend without aking the blame i just dont know fourth all my friends and other kids in my class ship me with these ugly rats but on of them is my CRUSh and now i dont know if he knows i like him i also have depression, I haven't eaten anything in school and home except for chocolate, chips, and gum and my parents are worried that I'm losing my appetite and i haven't gotten any sleep all i do i stare at the ceiling. and one of my firends ava is friends with my bsf and my bsf is really smart but im kinda mad that first of all ava made us swap seat and like exuse me miss like thats my seat and will BE MY SEAT like D@amn its not that HARD TO MOVE !! and whenever i do is sit down she asks me where my bsf is and i wanna say mind ur on bissnuses B**TH like d@amn and when my bsf walk in the classroom she like OMGGG HIIII (bsf name) like bro aren't you going to calm down like sh** bro and one day when the teacher sees that she needs to make everyone go to new seats ava like I HOPE I GET TO SSIT NEXT TO (bsf) and (her bsf) and my bsf asked why she did not say my name but all ava did was stay quiet and give me a i side eye like B88TH ILL ALSO GIVE YOU A SIDE EYE MF. but i also think she using my bsf to get a better grade in class bc she keeps asking her to answers adn when this all happened i just had to sit there for half the quarter silent and now everyone thinks im a quiet kid just bc of all this sh*ty stuff happening in my life I also got into 2 fights because of my temper and now i might not be able to go to a fancy catholic school that my parents want me to go in so now i have to military school if they dont allow me in. i swear life is so unfair to people who don't deserve to be tortured, depressed, feeling like their worthless and i hate that i always have to look at myself after getting yelled at by an a adult just for some of the stupidest reasons i just hate life and I WISH I WAS NEVER EVEN B0Rn i hate how life is so crucial, mentally scary, al these situations always leave scars for me i just WISH i could be a different person sometimes bc im so worthless and horrible i feel like im a monster.. im tired of this worl and always trying to fit in i want to be myself around people but i can't because of all those other people who bing me down and i hate how i have to two faced online and in-person just to fit in im just tired at this point and i need a break from people and life so good bye
im coming back in april
