Happy Valentine's Day! I regret every decision I ever made as a human being ever. Context~ So there's this girl in my class who I have a crush on. So, since today was Valentine's Day, I decided to leave an anonymous confession note in her locker. I've had this plan for a few weeks now, and most of my friends were in on the plan. Somehow, some FRIGGING how, everyone (and I mean EVERYONE) in my grade knows. SOMEONE must have told someone who wasn't supposed to know, and the word spread. According to an irl friend, a couple of boys went up to her (the friend, not the girl I like) at art and were like, "Hey did you know that Em left a note in [Girl's Name Here]'s locker?" Somehow they knew. They knew EVERYTHING. They even knew that the note was two pages long. And guess what? The girl knows it's me, too. She doesn't like me back, and I am totally cool with that. But she guessed it was me right away, and I don't know, at this point the whole school knows? I feel so bad, because the girl feels bad that she doesn't like me back (girl, if you're reading this, it's cool that you don't like me). I don't know. I feel weird. Like, nervous and anxious and empty and upset at the same time. I feel like I want to cry, but no tears are coming. I just feel off. I'm just going to talk to my friends about it and see if they have an inkling of who told everyone. I'll probably also go talk to my amazing reading teacher, because she's friendly and cool and queer and she'll let me talk to her. I'll also probably talk to my band teacher because my band teacher is awesome. I just need to talk to some people, I guess. If I get any updates, I guess I'll post it. Stay tuned, I guess. ~ Em
