[edit 5/12/23: some text was removed for slightly personal reasons. Thank you for understanding !] [edit 12/7/2023: guys im actually still alive on this site - just not really going to make a lot of projects lool] pls read to the bottom , kinda important All my friends did it for the better. Maybe I should too ----------------------------------------- I joined scratch when I was around a pretty young age. This site was a calming place, and I made a ton of amazing friends. Now I'm older [but not like ancient-old] and I've been on this site for exactly 3 years and a month now . Honestly , I loved this site . To be honest, I've actually never had a single hate comment in all these 3 years. But for others , it's sad to see people in this community leave due to negative criticism and bullying until the point they just can't take it anymore and get a bad impression on this fun site that is supposed to be meant for making friends and expressing creativity in projects . I wish people just didn't have to go through that much just for being who they are/what they like . ------------------------------------------------- I'm not leaving this site specifically for that reason though, instead I feel like I'm at the edge of growing out of this site. Personally, I think I may be a bit too old to be here now , even though there's older people on scratch that I know . Leaving scratch is one of the steps to maturing and growing up , and everyone suggests I should really start stepping out of the internet a little and growing out . during these past days, I've been debating on leaving scratch for the better or staying for maybe a bit longer , which delays my personal growth . ------------------------------------------------- I'm also currently *very* nearsighted . I find it probably because I'm always on my devices pretty often. and scratch is also part of the reasons why. I still have an endless list of projects I've wanted to make on scratch . I've been wanting to make a few remakes of old memes and a fake collab project for a while now , but I don't know if my interest in making new projects will stay while I construct them until I finish. Usually, I start making new projects and refrain from starting other projects , but I get distracted with new ideas easily while making a project so often that the rest of the project usually ends up turning into random ideas put together - trust me it's not creative at all to be honest- I used to get hyped and proud every time I finished a brand new meme , but now whenever I made something , I see it as random scraps put together . My projects on my alt account [ @moazbun_reposts ] even seem way better than the stuff I make on my main . Because of that , I think there's like some kinda uh magic into making projects there, which actually motivates me into posting more often on my alt . I've been considering moving my ideas onto my main account , but knowing this account is more popular , I always have the urge to create something that is actually very good enough to be posted and impress the larger audience on this account , but I'm always sticking to smaller projects more which resulted in me posting more onto the alt . I also often like the newly posted projects so people can see it and perhaps take a look on my coding that is way more far beyond what's actually here , which is basically rlly nothing because I only make BIG projects here and they usually turn out effortless unlike my projects on my alt account with me WILLING to make and finish them . I always spend a huge amount of time on my projects . But whenever I start a new project , I always feel the urge to finish it . but whenever I post on my alt , I don't feel the same urge pulling , it's like I'm free to pause on it whatever time I want - I feel more free into making stuff there . bruh is desc too long I have to move it to the bottom
this is still mainly testing the waters if I really want to quit . I posted this project just in case if I really do leave - and regarding my inactivity if my account is suddenly dead . I'm still debating on staying or leaving for the better . Scratch is like emotional support to me and I'm like attached to it because I've been here for a long time . But at the same time , I feel like I would be much better if I didn't have distractions anymore to keep me away from irl. If I feel like I've had major improvement without scratch holding me back , I may leave . It probably means I really grew out of here . If I feel like I can't get detached to scratch , it probably means I'm not ready to grow out yet - I may find some other small ways to help myself slowly climb out and take small steps until I'm ready to move on . The big thing is , I'm going to miss making projects , mainly . I always loved dropping random blocks and adding them together with my artwork and showing it to the community , it was one of the things I loved to do most . But I can't think of it as a hobby because it does take up a lot of my time daily and it's sorta unhealthy if I keep going on :'[ I'm going to discontinue follow-backs . I usually follow back as a way to say "thank you for the follow!" , but I probably don't always have time for that - but I highly thank and appreciate every follow <3 you all are so awesome bruh I also didn't want to say "quit" because it sounded like as if I didn't have a great time here . I feel like the word "leaving" sounded less angry and I left this site peacefully , not out of anger or anything . Thank you all for everything if I leave . - moazbun/pugincorn
