If you have depression like I do, you know what I’m talking about. I’m not gonna sugar coat this or anything, this is genuine. This instructions section is where I’ll be talking. Depression. What does it mean? No, I don’t mean the dictionary definition, what does it mean for someone to have depression? Imagine yourself in a pitch black room with only one window. There aren’t any doors and the window is locked. You don’t know if you put yourself in this room or if it was others who put you in here. Part of you wants to stay in the room then another wants to go outside with the people you see outside the window. Some of these people are simply enjoying life. Others are hunting you down to finish the job on you. You can’t leave. You never can. You can never reveal the invisible scars that have been left on you from what others did to you. You can never show them the truth, because they would either criticize you and tell you to stop being such a downer, or tell you they know how you feel when they really have no idea what’s going on. They only see the sadness that shows on the surface. They don’t see how deep it goes. Eventually you get bored from just sitting in the empty room and start calling out people’s names. Maybe these walls are thin enough for people to hear you. You call out again and again but there are no answers and nobody comes. It turns out these walls are thicker than the earth itself. Soon, people start writing notes and sticking them on the window telling you to come out. You don’t come out because either you question why they didn’t reach out to you earlier or because you know that they can’t help you. You are safe in this room. Safe from the world. Safe from those who will hurt you. Safe from those who pretend they get it. Safe from those who won’t just accept the fact that you aren’t getting better. You cry, both inside and out loud, because it’s all you can do. There’s nothing else left.
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