I want to cry. All I've ever done is be nice. All I get back is a 'leave me alone' or 'ew do you like me!?' I hate it. I try to speak up but I'm worried. I'm worried that ill be treated like an alien. Like I'm not even human. To other kids I'm a punching bag. An empty hole you can scream and toss your feelings at. I'm not treated like a human. To adults I'm a little miss perfect and when I do something wrong they brush it off but if I do something good they will praise me, then when I do something wrong again I'm given a look of disappointment. I hate it. I want a new like. I want to run. I want to hide. I want to cry. I want to scream. I'm tired. I'm currently crying as I write this. I hate going over my feelings but if I keep it all in I feel miserable. I feel better after venting it though. At home I'm called names, pushed around, and people have high expectations for me. If I don't say anything I'm ignored but when I do people act like I'm crazy. I don't know what to do. I go to sleep crying each night wishing things were better. That I would get a better life. I've never been hurt physically (to the point where I have to go to the ER), but trying to hurt feelings leave worse scars. Scars that never leave. Scars that follow you to the day that you die. Think about your actions. You could give someone a scar, and they will never forgive you for it.
