please take the time to read this if you care irl friends please don’t read this >>so basically I haven’t kept up with artwork. I don’t want to have vague conversations and feel like I owe friendship and convos to strangers on the internet. although I love this platform and it’s very kid friendly, and has helped me accumulate over 450 follows and improve my art and writing skills, I haven’t been doing my job as a scratcher and as a daughter to my own mother. I got a new phone for my birthday. She /trusts/ me. I wouldn’t call her overprotective, but compared to other parents, yes, she could be slightly. And I’m not mad at that. I’m mad at myself for going onto this platform, messaging friends on non-monitored apps and making friends with kids online. Although loneliness will likely consume me, I’ll be okay. I’ll probably check back often to empty out my mail/respond to it, but I won’t post art or stories anymore. I want to thank all my scratch friends for all the support but I think I can do this on my own now<33 I’m doing this for myself, to reduce future guiltiness, and for my family because I still want to have trust with them. if you are a member from the gaehive, I’ll probably never really chat there even though it will be difficult to resist. I know it sounds selfish of me to do this or even write this and it sounds super passive aggressive; it’s not and I just can’t do this anymore. nobody here has done anything wrong—I have. Thank you for your time to read this,feel free to ask any questions. <3 >>and no I’m not going to tell her about scratch and convince her to let me stay, I just can’t, I’m sorry. >>and this is what is going on in my mindset—if anyone is curious about my whereabouts on this website, they will visit my profile and read this, I don’t really have a reason to tell people specifically. the reason I’m being so emotionless while writing ALL of this is because it’s difficult. ilaysm >>If you made it this far and haven’t read the notes and credits, please do.
keep in mind that this is really hard for me because scratch is my happy place where I can be myself thank you: @-writerspen- (deleted) @ all of my other friends @ gaehive @ all of my followers @ anyone who’s ever made me smile @ you @ see for more people I’ve appreciated for being there. thank you. I wish you all the best. and I’ll leave you with one final quote: “let go or be dragged” </3
