The warmer person I am on the outside is primarily an act because on the inside I'm a hollow shell. I want to be better but it's so hard not to fall back into the monster I am. This rigid apathy has taken over my mind and infected my soul. I'm fighting myself in hopes that one day I can be a better person. Maybe I don't deserve happiness but I want to bring it to the people that do.
I'm as sincerely sorry as I can be to everyone I've hurt. I know I can never repay what I took from all of you but I will make sure no one else ever has to suffer what I made you suffer.