update: now the traitor who i forgived, (but now h8 obviously,) r3p0rt3d me and now @coffeecvp- is b4nn3d. today started as a really bad day. a really bad one. first, it was raining like crazy. i even had to ride my bike to school in the rain because my dad's car had some issues. second, while i was riding, because i had to bring my violin as well, it was so heavy i slipped and almost ran into a car. srsly. im not lying. a similar experience happened like this today, which i only told one person. which is what im gonna talk abt right now. after i came home, i checked b0ard. and thats when things started to go downhill. i also had gotten bl0ck3d on @coffeecvp-, but im sure its just a few days. thats not the big problem though. after all these troubles, i learned a lesson today. i learned that, friends, mostly online, can ruin your own self esteem, can ditch you, can hurt you, or can be fake. the friend i told the biking story abt for example. everyday, i come home and go straight to her b0ard to say hi. either she ignores me, or just says "HI zoe" and moves on to her other friends. today, when i went home, i checked MY b0ard and did u know what i found? a msg saying "hey zoe this is over, we're chatting somewhere else." these are examples of them lowering my self esteem. i thought, am i not a good friend? am i a bad person? they'd said they would give me the link to the new chat area, but i didnt even see it. ig thats how i would say they "ditched" me. next, being a fake. i have a friend, or, used to, since i dont even consider them a friend anymore after what happened today, and she kept telling the lie, "oh my friend told me u didnt follow me bcuz u h83d me!" cmon, u dont think ikwym? u unfollowed me FIVE times, and posted that msg hoping i would flw you. these fakers just "pretend" to be your friend to get a flw, like, love, whatever. fourth, being a traitor. i gave them the link to a chat, and they r3p0rt3d me bcuz they new giving a link was known as sh4r1ng information that was classified. fifth, being a follower. i also, "used to have a friend" and today i noticed smth. after the ppl wrote "sorry this chat is over" that friend went with them and didnt even care abt how i felt. it was like they chose the other side without even thinking what would happen to me. but, maybe this is because im s3lf1sh. who knows. and im not saying ALL my friends are like this. i really thank chelsea, mulan, amelia, gracii, lanni, chloe, tangie, ella have been rlly supportive along this jouney. thanks so much. this was just a little rant. it felt so good to write out my emotions.
