tw :: mentions of s//h and su//c//dal thoughts this will probably get taken down . . school sucks . i recently , i mean today - 3rd period - found out my vp quit because of her own issues . this made me cry because of how sensitive i can be . at first i was ok but people laughed at me and i was sent out for " being a disruption " , i dont mind tho , the thing is 7th period . no one likes that teacher but i specifically hate him . he makes me feel like im being picked on constantly . he sent be out for GIGGLING ? ? he told me to fill out a form and go to ocr which i didn't want to . he LIED on me saying i told him to sm//d ( which i didn't but atp should've ) . . . anyways eventually i got sent to ocr and this dude freaking CALLED MY GRANDMA and waited till after he did for me to tell him i didn't say anything to that poor excuse of a teacher . i could not go to bball practice today and my grandma said she'd " talk to me " , ik all shes gonna do is tell me to talk - interupt or talk over me - ground me - tell me its my fault and take away all my coping mechs . i walked home crying of pure stress , anger and anxiety . i hate my school . i had 2 breakdowns there and nobody did anything . when i got home i had another breakdown in which i c\\t myself . i was literally thinking about trying to km self . i almost did . i opened my window and literally almost fell out but pulled myself back in . now im shaking . im glad i didn't do it . im so glad . i don't know if i can do this anymore . i don't know what to do . school , home , people in general are stressing me out . i'm hanging on by a thread . i want to do something but can't . i have no motivation . im freaking drained . it's frustrating . i'm just gonna go listen to music and stare at the ceiling waiting for my grandma to come home . goodbye . if you're reading this , thank you .
