I hate myself yk? It's weird how I feel about myself sometimes. I could go from thinking I'm actually decent to thinking i'm a horrible human being and I don't deserve anything given to me recently I discovered that someone I really cared about was talking behind my back, I thought he was a friend. He wasn't. He told the girl he hated this stuff which made things even worse because he talked behind her back to me. and he did the opposite with her. I couldn't believe he would do that yk? i trusted him so much and he just did that to me like I didn't matter to him. which most likely I didn't, which hurts a lot. He left me during a time I was really confused about yearbook and I had to finish it myself. I didn't do a lot but it felt like it. I took idk 60-80 pictures for VVG (Vintage Video Game ) and I hated every single one. when he was there I was a bit more confident with the yearbook but now..? It sucked I feel like a failure. I feel like all the work that i put into it (which was not a lot to me) wasn't good enough, but i'm done with it now so that's good ig. but im failing most of my classes now so yay! go me!
