{Trigger Warnings: negative thoughts and dialogues invalidating feelings, gaslighting, mourning on a dead parent, bad mother-daughter dynamic, and emotional crisis} But Felix continued to hold me, I wanted to throw him off me and yell at him but some deep thoughts forced me not to. Telling nobody had to feel my wrath except my Mamá, still in Felix's arms turned to look at her seeing the look on her face told her everything, seeing through my eyes the windows to the soul. This soul wanted a mother that loved and cherished her but got the bare minimum, having invalidated feelings and wanting so desperately to be heard but no matter my voice wasn't loud enough. I wasn't good enough and never will be. This soul cried out sobbing begging to be loved for 45 years still at 50 years old NOTHING. Mamá ran down the stairs looking angered "What the heck Pepita what's wrong with you!" she yelled"I'm not good enough for you" "But your sympathy would work..." she mumbled. "Pepa you...Alma, you put these thoughts in her head didn't you!" Felix screamed accidentally squeezing Pepa tighter in his arms "You're squeezing me..." I groaned from the tightness. Behind Alma, a doorknob jiggled and the door opened Antonio's door "Mamá, are you okay Dolores said you guys were being loud and you were crying..." he asked worryingly. {Sorry for being short}
CH.2- it got deleted from the original site I posted it on {I toned this one down so it wouldn't be reported} the original one: {Read the warnings} https://encanto.fandom.com/f/p/4400000000000041412
