Hi...um, this is probably unhealthy, but I'm in my bathroom at a quarter till two am on a Monday (technically Tuesday now you ***** of a body) crying over this tablet because nobody is on and I have a very degraded mental health...haha...ha...ha. it's just, I always feel alone, and now that I haven't been on in awhile, and part of what I used to help me keep going was the thought of finding my way back to scratch and being with you guys as soon as I came back. Which was unrealistic, i know, but whatever keeps you alive longer. But like take that seriously? And seeing that half of you are not even really active any more either just kinda...really broke that little tiny mental barrier there so now I'm trying to vent in an unposted project. Now I really know I'm gone. But to be fair, the only one that was ever really one this late (early, brain, get it right) was @Bugrumpycat201 aka @skylar_the_nightwing and that was because we were both being young stupid idiots trying to press our bodies to their limit and beyond, which is not a good plan, so if she's improved her life good for her! Mine just kinda.*drain noises*...but this isn't your fault for not being on! I'm kinda purposefully wasting my body and being really unrealistic. If you forgot I existed, then here's a slap in the face about what happens to not ok ppl when they spend a couple of years without a good support group: they turn into a self-destructive mess that breaks down at everything and doesn't function right until pain is the only thing that grounds them, and bri gs comfort for being something reliable. Do not go down this rabbit hole, that is a terrible idea, jts very nearly impossible to climb back out of. I repeat, get help before you get anywhere near this rabbit hole!
