The blue cat is the host's oc.. The white cat in the water is me. Pretty much. I'm an alter within The Berry Bush system. I'm also a fictive from Warrior Cats. Lately. I've been feeling very separated and alone. I miss home. I miss home so much. I hate that this body isn't mine. Nothing feels right. I miss hunting with my mate. I miss my kits. I hate the fact that when I walk, I always trip. These legs aren't my legs. I can't type. I can't speak without messing up. And to make it all worse. When I front I have to mask. Pretend to be Berry. I'm so bad at it.. I'm not Berry. I'm Cloudtail. A warrior of ThunderClan. Not an alter within a system.