so idk if anyone really noticed bc barely anyone talks to me anymore but i’ve been fairly inactive which is due to 4 things … 1: I’ve been really depressed lately 2: scratch used to be my safe place i could log on and chat and rp and feel happy for a while but now a lot of my friends are rarely online or just… we can’t keep a convo going… 3: The top to have led to me getting a sick anxious feeling whenever i’m online here bc like… the friends i’ve made and the projects and rps i’ve done have led to some great friendships and memories, but now it feels like those are gone, and i don’t know how to get that back, and my usual reaction to stuff like this is leaving before i can be left… 4: i hate coming online hoping to talk with a friend only for studio notifs or waiting hours for them to see my “hi”. It just feels like my friendships have become one sided and i don’t know how to fix them this is not targeted at anyone and i’m sorry if you feel targeted, it’s not meant that way. so i guess i’m unofficially leaving scratch kinda i mean, i don’t want to, because scratch and the community here has kept me going and brought me a lot of happiness, but it’s come to the point where coming online only makes me feel worse because I have no reason to be here anymore and the lack of communication between me and my friends just makes me feel more like the massive screw up i am. I mean… it’s not set in stone, if anyone cares enough to try and keep me here i’ll consider it but as of right now i’m likely going to leave scratch for a while… no one will probably even bother looking at this but oh well still, not sure if i will, but its liekly i’m not leaving YET and i’m not fully decided on leaving so… just wanted y’all to know why in case i do leave…
update: i swear i am the worst person ever i’m decided i’m /probably/ not leaving bc i suddenly rediscovered the joy i found in Scratch that or i’m hyperfixating again idk
