- - - - - - - - - - - - • Instructions • - - - - - - - - - - - - Watch twice or more to get rid of lag. Spamming flag doesn't help so much :P (& maybe turn down your volume, the audio's a bit loud.) No advertising. it goes against the Community Guidelines and I will report you. - - - - - - - - - - - - • Concept notes • - - - - - - - - - - - - Ok. SO. I have a lot of thoughts about this. TL;DR - being aro/aro-spec is wacky as all-get-out when you doubt your ability to label yourself I found this song back in 2019 in a redd!*t post about being quoiromantic, back when I identified that way, and it really struck a chord. I mean, I can see this song in an aro-spec light, of course, (because honestly you can see it in the lyrics from a mile away), but at the very core, the primary thing I see in this song, particularly this section of it, is that DOUBT I had, and still have- that reason I identified as quoiro. The insecurity in my own ability to "diagnose" myself. So, in this MAP part I tried to explain my aro-spec experience: How... I don't really know what's what.... and I'm constantly doubting myself and that's really confusing. like, are my "yellow butterflies" romantic attraction? am I actually not aro? ... Do I even know what I'm doing? (the answer to that one is honestly no lol.) ALSO: I don't really know how to explain it. But that thing about people /telling/ you you've already "turned out"? THAT HITS HOME. Ive been trying to write this commentary section about those lyrics for 10 minutes and I'm just not finding the words. idk. it's just... so frustrating, that when I tell people I'm aroace, that there's no easy going back, or no fuzziness at the edges, or no room for my own internal confusion. No space for me to live outside of being EXACTLY "aroace". Because every time I've come out to allos (cishet or not) they make my aromanticism and asexuality something so unbendable and unbreakable that they make me uncomfortable to be anything slightly un-a-spec. Idk how to explain it, but they treat me sort of different and they assume that when I say I'm a-spec that means I can't have tertiary attraction or [honestly it's worse with the fellow queers because they try to joke about my a-spec-tuality by accidentally isolating me from my LITERAL OWN COMMUNITY. It makes me so frustrated. :')] idk i think i'm off on a tangent here anyways - - - - - - - - - - - - - • Animation notes • - - - - - - - - - - - - - This animation took me way longer than it should have (oops) but in the end i'm fine with how it turned out :P I think the thing that really just got frustrating by the end was the butterfly hair. I just. aaaa. tracking the individual butterflies made me want to curl up in the corner in a ball and disintegrate. :'0 I never want to animate butterflies again. Don't let them come in my vicinity >:000 ...(Which is ironic because I felt this exact way when making a painting with a billion butterflies for AP studio art before i even started this project but then here I was with the butterflies. again...This is proof i dont learn from my mistakes lol) Anyways if anyone wants to look at my process with the storyboard or character designs, i left it all in the project for ya to look at :) not that anyone actually looks at them lol I mostly used scratch for this, although i worked a little bit in turbowarp so i could have onion skinning on the hair because it was driving me up the wall. turbowarp is basically scratch, but with extra features and without ways to interact with the community. I recommend you check it out, it's pretty cool :) --> turbowarp.org Here are the stats haha- Score: 7.5/10 Time taken: 15-40 hours over the span of months (i honestly have no clue how long i've spent on this, i just know it was a lot)
