Vent/leaving

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PT 1: yeah so I'm leaving lol I mean I haven't been active for like months now so it's not to big of a surprise but still Honestly it has been a really amazing time being on scratch and having so many people supporting me, even though my art looked like my cat vommed it up. I thought I needed a fresh start, so I created a new account, but that really didn't do anything. I love scratch, but I don't have the motivation. There is so much going in my life right now that I need to focus on, and my newest projects hardly get any likes and veiws, despite me having over a hundred followers. The only mail I'm getting is from studios now lol so heres my vent about my personal life There are many vents I can do right now, but I'll stick to only a few. My cat gave birth and I literally fell in love with one of her kittens, and I wanted to keep the kitten, but my sister is my parent's favourite and they decided to go with another kitten instead. This broke my heart, obviously, spiralling me into a kind of depression chamber that lasted for weeks. Only after the kittens went did my mum realise she probably made a mistake and I loved the kitten more than my sister liked the kitten she chose. Too late now, mum. My dad tried to help by contacting the people who bought the other kittens, asking if we could get the kitten back, but now the people refuse to speak to us and now I won't get any pictures of my favourite kitten ever again. ( I asked my mum if she could ask the lady to take pictures of my favourite kitten and send them to me but now she never will) Oh also, my toxic friend. TW: SENSITIVE TOPICS (SH, UNAL!VEMENT) Let's call her Tay Tay started to start being quite toxic around last year, and idk why because we had such a good friendship until then. The first time I realised this was when I finally felt comfortable enough to open up to my friends about the extensive and honestly traumatic bullying I had when I was younger. In fact, the bullying only stopped when I moved schools. I told them about how rude she was and the names she called me, how she made fun of me every day to the point where I would fake excruiciating headaches just to get out of school. You know what Tay did? She laughed. hahaha very funny. She also likes to make things into competitions. (For example, If I say I got only 5 hours of sleep, she would say ''well I only got 1 hour'', etc.) So, after I talked about my bully, she started talking about hers. I had mentioned that my bully's mum was a teacher at my school, and she said that HER bully's mum was also a teacher at her school then she said the most non-bullying sentence ever. This is what she said: "yeah, my bully's mum was a teacher and she would be like: Tay, give the skipping rope to *bully's name*" GIRL WHAT LMAO A SKIPPING ROPE????? Also, tay believes she has OCD and acts like other people (who have ocd) in my school. Ever since she had even the thought of having OCD she has changed nearly everything about her. She used to share her food like everyday, but now she doesn't because she "doesn't share food" I didn't have a problem with that, as I hate sharing my food due to potential autism ( btw I have looked into autism for months and I have been talking to my autistic friend who believes I do have autism, but my parents don't want to check me so yeah ) but, one day, I had some crisps in my hand, and tay asked me for some. I said no, but she dug her hand (which was covered in dirt and pen) into my packet of crisps. I told her I hated that because I said no, and she still didn't say sorry. She is also taking away one of my friends, so now everytime you want to look for one or the other, you will find them both. Tay also says directly to our faces she wants to una!ive her friends and herself. She also says she sm0kes (she doesn't ) She almost shows off about sh and una!livement, and it's exhausting to hear her say " well I'm so mentally ill lol, I sh " When I mentioned to her I probably have autism, afterwards she started to say stuff like:"My doctors think I have autism" and"My mum wants me to get an autism test" She also says she's senstive, though she is not bothered by many sounds, smells or textures like I am. I understand, when you have autism, you are not always super clever, but I am. For every single subject, my target grades were 100%. I keep on getting 100% on my maths tests and probably my main interest is Art, and I excel in it. She doesn't. She is kind of in the middle, like probably a regular person's grades. (I was not saying that to boast, just to compare me to her.) She would act really rude to me after I talked to her politely, and then she would tell me to get used to it. Oh yes, of course your majesty, I will get used to you treating me like absolute dog sh!te. She would only allow me to vent to her if SHE could vent back. She would always switch the conversation to herself and her problems. When I mentioned I think I had autism she said: (go to pt 2)