This was supposed to be a serious vent but I can’t bring myself to actually do one. So I’ll just write some angsty stuff here as vents. If you don’t like this type of stuff, please leave. This is for when I feel crummy; no one needs you to make a person’s day worse. I just need to get this stuff out. If you also need to vent, there’s studios for venting. (Not that your feeling don’t matter. This is just my personal space for stuff like that) Please, I’d like to use this project as a venting space, so please keep it peaceful. Thank you. (APRIL 24, 2023) It’s tiring thinking I’m tiring others by my words. It easier and harder just to not say anything. Not even skills can get me out of working alone in projects where people can work together. I don’t care; fricking drag me into any group. I’d go as far to say I’d work with the teacher’s pet, but she’s annoying as frick so I’d rather not. Am I ungrateful for my friends? I have good amount. They all feel like mutuals though. Real life or online. I feels like I can’t keep anyone, drifting from people I talk, depending on the day. I feel to intimidated to actually start leaning on anyone. I don’t wanna be too clingy. Plus think8ng about what to say is tiring. It’s too tiring to try to get what people are saying. Does that make me ignorant? Selfish? I genuinely don’t know. Am I a bad person? The internet is such a W escape.
