⁴ school i woke up that morning with dread. i knew that i'd have to face lyra at school. it felt like there was a bottomless pit in my stomach. i hated it. i hated everything. i didn't want to see lyra. it was embarrassing. but, i had to suck it up. i went to school. i saw lyra. she acted like nothing had happened. that made the bottomless pit at the bottom of my stomach a little less empty. she smiled at me a lot. she laughed at my dumb jokes. she even held my hand. my heart jumped through my chest and landed in my throat when she did that. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate myself.
wOaH, self-homophobia for liking another girl ??? idk, maybe lmao -
