April 30. Mika...my best friend as three more days too l!v3...she's been po!son!ng herself like okasan did.....I couldn't make the last days the best days for okasan....but I am for Mika...I want to cry but I promised I wouldn't...so I can't cry. Oni-chan is worried for me...and I don't know why. I keep forgetting to eat my meds and I sometimes eat the yellow meds...I hope no one reads this diary. I'm so confused, lost, sad, anxious, clueless and depressed...someone please help... -Aoi Kanzaki ------------------------------------------------------------------------- April 30. -2nd entry I have to tell you a secret. I think I have a cr^sh. Okay, I know I’ve only known Mika and Inosuke for not even a month, but I swear I l!k3 both of them. They both make me feel light and warm, like one of those cinnamon apple candles okasan always puts out during the holidays. I used to feel like I’d always be swallowed up by darkness and emptiness, but when one of them are around, they light everything up and they make me feel full. I don’t want to tell them how I feel because I don’t want to lose them, even if it’s just as best friends, cr^sh or whatever...but the main question is who do I pick...? -Aoi Kanzaki
