(Tw) (Venting stuff thats around @-_-llOnyxll-_- life) Tbh I am the only one noticing Onyx is being less active on here bc of ppl. Ppl that she trusts start ghosting when she just starts talking to them again- In the past she'd have nice words to lift them up but know shes just scared shes gonna mess up and ruin it so she stays quiet. We she starts acting like herself= Ghosting, leaving and ppl being rude to here or forgetting abt her. She tries way beyond her limits for *Everyone* and what does she mostly get back?. Almost nothing. Ive seen so many times she tried talking to someone and she doesn't know what to say so she say something "dumb" and I get mad and frustrated bc she tries her best but they dont care. There's been so many times shes come over to my house and we just lay down and talk bc I seem to be the only one actually CHECKING IN with her and there so many times I just wanna h0rt *everyone* bc of their actions but ik she'd see me as a monster, so many ppl would be sad or upset, etc... I have so many reason I protect Onyx. Shes like my lil' sister. I don't want *anyone* h0rting her anymore. I am tired of knowing Onyx is just gonna stop. Everything. Just one day shes gonna give up on everything, talking, eating, sleeping, thinking, noticing, helping, feeling. She feels like sh-t everyday and no notices or cares most ppl just stop doing anything for Onyx. I am glad there are few ppl in Onyx's life staying but most of them are irl ppl the seem to care more then online ones, not surprising tho. There's so many times I am with Onyx and I just take her Phone so she can get away from everything even if its just for a min or two. Whenever she smiles, she looks happy but if u look at her eyes say the opposite.
