I honestly hate myself. I'm disgusted in myself. Why can't I just d-3? I'm a toxic friend and person, those type of people should just d-e and leave earth. I'm self absorbed as hell, I only think about me. I've tried to change. I've failed to change. I've tried to k-ll myself, and failed mostly because I didn't feel like it was the right time. I know nobody would care if I d13d, everyone would probably be happy as much as I hate myself. I barely have the motivation to do simple things such as going outside, take care of myself, and get out of bed on time. I act like everyone is going to leave me once they stop talking to me, I'm over emotional, I hate almost everyone. Some of those people are my friends. But people I don't hate are like Ziia, greg, @Creative_Kitsune (I don't have a nickname sorry- also have a good break), and Addi (a non-online friend). Might take a break, probs not quitting though, this means the Fanganronpa is on hold for now. Tbh if I commit it'd all be over, I should. I've been constantly stressed, my mental state is a whole mess, I want to cry. But I won't, crying is for stupid people with stupid feelings. Not for people that don't deserve to feel any emotions. I feel stupid and dumb. I hate life.
UPDATE : Everything is a bit better now !! :3
