Okay I'm so sorry that my projects haven't been getting views and are only like- 1 picture. I've just lost so much motivation and my Roblox account also got banned for me just making a normal t-shirt. Aside from that, I'm really sorry. anyway, onto real matters. i've already posted abt this in my profile comments, but i dont wanna waste ur time so i'll js repost it here. hihi! (warning vent incoming) turning my comments off temporarily as school is starting these coming weeks and i js feel super anxious. i really want to get ppl to get a good impression of me, but with the way i am i really js think they'll call me a weirdo js like last year. besides, if dealing with depression isnt enough during vacations, it'll be even worse during school. im not gonna make a fully blown vent, but i'll try my best to explain whats happening in a way that y'all understand fully. also i dont wanna reveal too much info, just enough so you know whats happening with me or whats going wrong. now, on screen i may seem super energetic and a very outgoing person. but yk, not everything on the internet is true. i have anxiety, im an overthinker, im currently dealing with depression (wow way to make the viewer's mind blown char) so just starting school will most likely increase or decrease my overthinking and depression. i have social anxiety, so last year i really struggled with presentations and speeches. whenever i like try to make a social interaction, i js back off and my overthinking kicks in BADLY. and when i say badly, i mean it. sure whatever, you can say im faking this, but then again, you never really know what a person's dealing through. oh and before i forget (hate on me as much as you want about this) but i get jelous, a lot. it actually gets to me deeply and i js criticize myself for not being like other people. i start crying to myself about it, and the only way i can stop is when my cats come near me or my siblings enter my room. to make my life worse, my parents dont really accept me. they call my depression and overthinking a phase, rejected me when i came out of the closet and criticized me for years when i was a kid. when i entered my teens, i've learnt to ignore them and continue doing what i want to do. i really want to be a scratcher, but its js not working for me. i dontget views, i barely know how to code, and im overall super unpopular. i mean, someone even started hating on me for copying EVEN THO IM NOT. just because my name is charlie and im a scratcher doesnt mean im copying her. tbh, i hate ppl like this that straight up accuse ppl because of "what they think". to me, overall i think they are the type of ppl that would get eaten by sharks to get a million dollars (no but srsly- where did i even get this from) i try to ignore hate irl and on the internet, but i js listen to them like their my mother teaching me the best thing in the world. except their sending me death threats (on my other socials not on scratch) even though i've never been anything but quiet. and another thing- because im so quiet that on twiter people started taking advantage of me and started posting tweets telling me to go die, that ill be homeless and unemployed. i've tried to write stories on watpad, but then again people started hating on me and my stories. i then turned to yt, people started hating on me and yet again, sending me death threats. then i found scratch. it had a great community of nice ppl, so i thought of being a scratcher. while the bullying had stopped, its just not working out here either (holy heck this went from a school vent to a whole mental-health n social life vent oml-) im not going to quit, im just taking a break. i'll post comments on my profile telling you guys how things are going, and overall something to laugh at or just for y'all to laugh at my embarrassing mistakes lmao. anyways bye guys! (no matter what do NOT use any of these comments to do anything in general idk why im writing this i js am) also MY ROBLOX ACC GOT BANNED FOR 1 DAY GRRRRRRR NOW I WILL START RANTING ON HOW MUCH I HATE ANDREW TATE GRRR (btw i do this everytime i rage) BUT SRSLY ROBLOX?? I just wanted to publish a shirt so i can get robux T-T
