Hey everyone, I thought I owed you an explanation for my inactivity, because you all have become so much to me over the last few months and I couldn't go on doing this to you. I wouldn't be able to bear it. Over the past month ive been inactive on and off on this account, but it grew worse during the last three weeks or so. My motivation went out the window and I had no energy to even log on to this account, all the commitments I'd made to all my camps and my friends just seemed too much suddenly and so I did the easy and selfish thing and didn't get on. I know you all may be angry with me, and I understand. I was horrible and selfish. You see, I moved from the home id known for all of my life three years ago and am now just starting to settle in. But now my parents want to move again. I can't take it, im so scared because I have no idea what the future holds. I don't know if ill have to say goodbye to my few friends once again and have to enter into an entirely new situation and be the 'new kid' again. Im so sick of this, I just want to continue homeschooling where I am even if its just for one more year. Theres a school id like to go to with my friends here, but my parents most likely won't let me. This year was super hard for me, I was an idiot in the beginning cause I didn't sign up for many programs so I had nothing to do all year and had barely any friends to hang out with. I have so much catch up work to do (some of its FROM LAST YEAR) because im so lazy and unmotivated that I have to deal with in order to go to school. And im freaking out because if I go to school ill be so behind in so many areas, especially math. Sorry, I didn't mean to vent all my irl issues to you all...it just came out. Now I forgot what I originally wanted to say :sobs: Im just really sorry I haven't replied to messages, its just so hard to be really committed to something as time consuming as camps when I have no idea what my future holds and my parents are constantly scaring the heck out of me when I hear them discussing where we might move to. Anyway, I hope you all forgive me <3 Cause you all mean so much to me and have always been so kind to me and have been such amazing friends when my irl friends weren't. I understand if your annoyed with me, what ive done isn't cool. Ill still do some camps, just as a camper for now. Night, -Bella <3 (Sorry if things are spelled wrong or there's no proper punctuation in this vent, I was rushing)
