It's been a while since I've been on here. And I kind of want to talk about it. In case you don't know me, hi, I'm Silver/Kittie, and I was a former Admin in TFCRP. Though for the last few months before I went on an unexpected hiatus, I admittedly didn't do a very good job at being an admin. I neglected my duties and planned events that never happened and put a lot of the work on my admin helpers. (Gecko and Rae, you guys helped me so much. I can never thank you enough for all the hard work that you've done.) I want to apologize for doing that. It was irresponsible of me, and I should've spoken about it much sooner. School in addition to real life issues were big factors that made me no longer want to log onto scratch. As school took up so much of my time and real life stuff being so mentally and emotionally taxing, I had to cut out some things from my life. And, I know this is a common thing for a lot of scratchers to say, but I was starting to grow out of scratch. It really sucks though. I've been on here for almost 5 and a half years. And I think at this point I've been apart of TFCRP for a little more than 5 years, which is crazy to think of. That's half a decade. That's almost 1/3 of my life. I don't think I would've been the person I am today without TFCRP and scratch. My hiatus made me realize a lot of things. Though even now I still love Warriors and roleplaying, the main reason why I stayed in TFCRP was because I liked how it made me feel so important. I was an admin. I could be a person people relied on and someone people could ask questions and favors from. It made me feel useful and, in a way, loved. Now I realize that the way I felt and thought was incredibly awful and really toxic. When I started to intentionally avoid going onto scratch, every time I thought about returning I would panic and feel an overwhelming sense of guilt. Eventually the guilt subsided the longer I stayed away from scratch, which tbh I don't know was a good thing or a bad thing. I was able to focus more on my studies, at the very least. Today was the last day of my school year and I was clearing out all the tabs on my computer when I saw a bunch of them were from scratch, most of them from a few months ago. Roleplays I needed to reply to, people asking me things. I actually made my decision to leave a little while ago, but it was today that I realized I should actually do so. And so, here we are now. Scratch and TFCRP specifically have given me some of the best memories in my life. The people I met, the projects I was able to work on and complete, it was unforgettable. I loved my time here, and despite the fact that this is a really hard thing for me to do, I think it's time to go. Sorry for rambling. I have a lot I really want to get off my chest. And I'm really sorry if this seems dramatic :,) So what does this mean for my characters? I'm trying to find a replacement for Lingonberry's Representor in The Serpentine Dynasty. I really wish I did more with him, but it gave me my chance at being the leader of a group in-roleplay, something I always wanted the moment I joined TFCRP. Although her life isn't how I expected it to turn out, Bumblepride's still one of my favorite characters that I've ever had. I have a few more roleplays I want to do with her to wrap things up. She's going to stick around for a bit until those are done. And once she is, that's when I'll be leaving. I just want to say thanks to the entirety of TFCRP. This has been the most kindest and accepting community I've ever been apart of, and I love all of you guys. I really don't know what else to say. Uh Yeah I love you guys <3
