Alright, I've been gone for a few months without explanation so i guess this is it. My mental health has been degrading and I'm struggling with math at school, My dog; Kali. Who is 13 years old (90 in dog years.) Just got put down. Right now, on this day. She's gone now. My mom is going through a stage of grief, so is my father and I. My brothers have gotten sick and i just recently also got sick. One of them even threw up and the other one cried for almost an hour this night while my parents tried to convince them to take medicine. I almost threw up and felt terrible, I also got 5-6 hours of asleep, maybe more or maybe less. which is actually a good amount of sleep but I feel terrible. Both mentally and physically. My stomach feels like a stone is settled into it. And a constant almost barely able to hear ringing is happening in my ears, i feel sick mentally and psychically and my chest feels tightened. School is going for one more month yet I think my Separation anxiety has increased. I only went to school two days because I was sick. But we had a test, and not being there is going to affect my grades maybe and I'm worried about that. I witnessed my mother cry while my other dog, Which is a Great Pyrenees and 8 months old, started whining and barking at the window while my father drove off with Kali (The one that was put down.) To be put down. I haven't been in a good thinking pattern and even had a narrow thought about hurting myself. And I have my suspicions that my parents are starting to realize somethings wrong with me. I want to be holded and cuddled, but I'm to scared to ask. My head is pounding and I feel like I'm being selfish and bratty. So in general, This might be goodbye.
