so. first read the story. okay. so there is this thing called VBS. Vacation Bible School. im christian. so im a TA. Teacher's Assistant, for little 3rd graders. they are so cute. around the middle of VBS, as i was going to sleep, i realized i couldnt. it was around 1:30 am when i fell asleep yet i found myself awake at 3 again. ive been in some sort of "grief" over nothing and i have no idea what it is i just assumed it was because i was sad to leave the kids. even my teacher is concerned abt my "erratic" behavior. he's asked me if im alright more than twice and pulled me out to talk abt it. i avoided talking abt it and said i was fine. ive been more fidgety, and i have anxiety attacks at least twice a day (mostly at night), and mood swings. it is 12:28 am as im writing this. im so scared, whats happening to me? also i hallucinated feathers...falling in my room this probably isnt real but my students were putting feathers on my teacher...so maybe? this sudden insomnia is weird i dont know whats going on...
